A few scribblings on difficulty

“But it’s so difficult”, she cried. “It’s impossible, I can’t do it. I just can’t do it.” Tears streamed down her cheeks as she sat, head in hands. “Why am I so bad at these things? I bet someone else could do it, I bet I’m the only one who can’t… I should just not even try cause I’ll only muck it up entirely, I should just let someone else do it cause they’ll do a better job of it than me.”

“It’s so ****ing difficult”, he fumed. “Absolutely bloody, stupidly, ****ing ridiculously difficult. How is anyone expected to be able to do that eh? What a ****ing idiotically impossible thing to be asked to do. Jesus, I swear I’m gonna rip the person’s head off whose ****ing idea this was. Nonsense, total nonsense. What a ****ing twat! Whoever’s idea that was, they deserve to have their guts ripped out and hung out to dry. I can’t believe aaannnyyyone could expect me to do that. They’re gonna pay.”

“Oh god, that looks difficult. I’m scared, I’m scared”, she wailed. “****, help! I will look such a fool if I can’t do that. Oh no, I can’t bear it. What am I gonna do? If I try and do that I’ll just look stupid. Everyone will laugh at me. Please, god, someone, anyone, get me out of here, may the world open up and swallow me now!”

“Uh huh, that looks difficult. Nah, I don’t think so, I’m not even going to attempt it”, he said with a slow, loud outbreath. “It’s impossible I reckon. What’s the point of trying, eh? Waste of energy. Nah, give up now, that’s my motto, I’m no fool. And it’s not even important anyway, I wouldn’t really care if I did it or not. No point even thinking about it. Forget about it and leave it alone. That’s best. Nothing to gain from it anyway.”

“It shouldn’t be that difficult. Why is it that difficult?” she demanded in petulant, sulky tones. “It’s just not fair. If it was easier I’d be able to do it. But that’s just too difficult. Why can’t be easier? It should be easier. It’s so not fair. OOOhh, I could just scream at how unfair it is! How can it be that difficult? It shouldn’t be allowed!”

“That… is not just difficult, that is impossible”, he proclaimed. “I know what I’m talking about. I know what is possible and what is not and I’m telling you that that is impossible. You can try and kid yourself with your airy fairy nonsense if you like, but you’re not living in reality. I know better, I know reality and I’m telling you there is no way that is possible. End of story.”

“That looks realllllyyyy difficult”, he said slowly and thoughtfully, “Is it possible? How is it possible? It must be possible somehow because they did it, but I can’t figure it out. I don’t know how to… Mmmm, maybe I can find out how they did it. May take a while but there must be a way. I’ve just got to find it, that’s all. A puzzle, but there must be a way to figure it out…”

“That looks really, really difficult”, she said uncertainly. “That would be such an achievement if I can manage to do it. A little scary though because maybe I can’t. I’ll have to take a deep breath, cross my fingers and hope for the best. But if I don’t succeed I must remember not to give myself a hard time cause it may be that it really is too difficult for me. And if I do manage it I’m gonna give myself a huge reward, cause I’ll deserve it!”

“Wow, that looks difficult. Oh my god, how exciting is that! How on earth do you do it?” he said in awe-struck tones. “I want to learn. That’s like magic. I’ve gotta learn that, it’s so cool. Can you teach me? Do you reckon I might be able to do that if I practise? Wow, if I can do that it would be sssoooo amazing!”

“It’s difficult… but I’ve done difficult things before,” she said calmly, “I know from experience I’m more than capable of this, and I know that even if I’m not capable I’d rather try than not. I’ve failed many times and I’m still alive and wiser for it. If I fail this time I’ll pick myself up again and I’ll learn something from it. If I succeed I’ll pat myself on the back. Either way, it’s a win win situation!”

“Ooooh, that looks difficult,” he laughed. “Oh well, what the hell, life would be rather boring without a few challenges along the way. I’ll give it a go and see what happens. It’ll be a laugh anyway, of course the joke may be on me but then I’ll be the first to admit it if so. Let’s have a go for the fun of it and see what happens…”

“Ha, something difficult!” She rubbed her hands gleefully. “Yes, at last, something I can really get my teeth into. I love a challenge! Oooohhh, you may look impossible, but once I get cracking on you, you won’t stay impossible for long. Ha, just you wait, when I get my hands on you, I am going to make the difficult look easy!”


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